Size 2 Jeans !?!

God bless all of the Mothers out there who can put on their happy mommy face and smile and (pretend??) that being responsible for their family and taking care of day to day business is easy and fun. I try not to cuss, but ... Bullshit!!!! I know I am not the only one out there that feels this way. It is not easy and the work definitely out weighs the fun. Why are there so many moms out there that can prance around town holding their kids hands - hair fixed just perfect, lipstick on and not smeared, make-up and clothes just right, - and the biggest thing... they have a huge smile on their face !!! How is this possible???

When I first became pregnant I read so many books, What to Expect When You are Expecting, The Toddler Years.. What to Expect ... I must have skipped over the Books titled - Expect Complete Exhaustion or If You are 40- Lordy Lordy! and Having 2 Girls? Expect it ALL!

I thought that by waiting until I was almost 40 to have a family would be the best thing for me. I wanted to get all of the "foolishness" out of me and wanted to make sure I was READY to take on such a big responsibility. I never in a million years thought it would be so hard and so "all-consuming" (is that even a word?)

Anyway, I just really have a tremendous amount of respect for all of those mothers who can keep it all together and take good care of their families and put their children first and keep that smile on their face :) I know I am a good mom! And I have that smile on my face about 90% of the time... But there are days when we all go out and I have got the girls looking really cute and Jeff is looking good and he will load the girls in the car and we are pressed for time and I am rushing around trying not to forget anything - my arms are full of "kid stuff", my purse is dangling around my neck, I am also carrying my shoes to put on in the car , things are falling out of my hands as I try to get into the car - we get to where we are going and I look a mess and then the first thing I see is a young mother dressed in size 2 jeans with high heels on looking very nice with 2 or 3 kids... and she is smiling! Enough Said!

The Wheels on the Bus go Round and Round...

This has been a very Busy week filled with much anxiety on my part. Abigail started Kindergarten this week! Last year if you would have asked me I would have told you that I was ready for her to go to school... but now I wish I could keep her home with me!

Monday night was a welcome night at the school where you get to see the classroom and meet the teacher. I really liked the teacher, she seemed very nice and very professional, which I really liked. She handed out a notebook that went over a lot of the things they would be doing and all of a sudden it hit me that Abigail was growing up whether I liked it or not... tears filled my eyes! It was overwhelming to say the very least !

Her first day of school we took her to her classroom. She loved it and was very excited. When I picked her up the teacher said she did great so that always makes you feel good. I really wanted to take and pick up Abby from school but she was really wanting to ride the bus. After picking her up and having to deal with all of the traffic and chaos I decided to let her try out the bus. OMG ~ I would have died if my mother would have done this > I followed the bus to school. The bus goes through the country and I just wanted to see the route and to make sure she knew how to get to her classroom from the bus. I am just glad the police didn't come for me! :) Anyway, I am glad I did that because Abby was the last one off the bus and when she got off she looked so lost. I went up behind her and said "Abby - would you like me to walk you to your class?" She

was so Happy!

Today is day 3 of school and I am doing a little better with it. Things didn't start out too smooth this morning... while we were waiting for the bus somehow Abby tripped and fell on her butt and it looked as if she had pooped her pants... I did not have time to run and change her because the bus was coming down the road ... *#$! happens !

Potty Training Day 3

People have always told be that with your first child you always spend more time with them teaching them new things, for example potty training. I will be the first to admit that I have been a major "slacker mom" when it comes to potty training Caroline! Its not that I don't want her to learn... but she is my baby and I guess a big part of me wants her to stay that way. It makes me sad to think how quickly they grow up! I have attempted a few times but she made it clear to me that she had no interest and who was I to push her ;) Last week my mom (jokingly) ??? said that she would be taking her diaper bag with her to preschool.

That being said - Potty Training Boot Camp was enforced!





We are on day #3 and so far she is doing really good! She has no problem with the poop part, but every once in awhile she will forget and have an accident. I guess she is probably about 70 % there. I am proud of her!!! When she does her business she gets so excited and her face gets red with a Big smile and she says "Me big girl now"